It’s the waiting game.
I send him an email.
He responds after 24 hours.
I respond to his responses after 24 hours.
And so on and so on…
There is just no end. I am tired of defending myself. I am tired of trying to convince him to change the calendar dates, allow me to attend dance functions with our daughter that fall on his weekend, lower the price of the house, find our daughter a therapist, make the house available for showings, etc. I am just tired. We are never going to see eye to eye.
I met with a divorce lawyer friend who looked through my long emails and told me that there was no end to this ongoing war I was engaged in. She said the only way out was to stop engaging.
For once, I am going to listen to her. I no longer have the strength or desire to fight this ever losing battle. When I receive his email of responses, and I know I will receive one within the next 24 hours, I am simply going to respond “Clearly this back and forth emailing is not productive. Since we are having trouble communicating, I would like to suggest that we go and speak to a communications and parenting expert by the name of xxxx. Her fee is xx/hour and we would need at least 2 hours. I will pay the first hour and you will pay the second hour. This will save us a lot of money and emotional exhaustion.”
What do you all think? Does anyone have any experience using this type of counselor? I am looking for advice so please send some my way.
It’s been a long while since I made a list but it is time to start again:
- I started taking pictures again of friends and family. It is something I love to do.
- I am posting these pictures on Facebook. I am now in a place where it is ok for the world to see that I am divorced and starting to be happy again.
- I changed my name on my bank accounts today and opened up my own account for the very first time.
- I have my daughter with me for 2 more days.
- I have my puppy with me for 2 more days.
xoxo