Sunday I was in crisis mode.
I woke up to find out that my uncle has cancer.
An hour later my grandmother died.
An hour later my 12 year old confided in me that she has tried to commit suicide several times, even before the divorce.
It is now a couple of days later and this is where we stand…
Treating my uncles cancer, on hold for the week.
My grandmother’s funeral is this afternoon in Toronto. My daughter and I traveled to Canada for it. While it is always sad to lose someone, and my daughter is very sad about it, she lived to be 91, never had a sick day in her life, was very comfortable, and died quietly in her sleep. Not a bad way to go.
And my daughter… well, I was shocked. Her and I are so close and we share everything. To hear that she has been so unhappy… I actually have no words. My scariest moment as a parent yet.
She has now seen two therapists, both think that she is not at risk of harming herself. Both think that she is sad about home life, drama amongst her friends, and losing people she loves in her life. Both think she just needs therapy, not medication, therapy. Lots of love and therapy.
She seems happier since she let this big secret out. I hope I can get her the help she needs.
Just an FYI. Do you know what Disney Dad did on the day she let out her big secret? He started a fight with her. He continued the fight with her for most of the day. He took away all of her electronics for 2 weeks. He should get an award for worst parent EVER!!!
God, give me strength to make it through this funeral, this divorce, and especially this crisis with my daughter.
xoxo
My Shattered Life As A Jewish Housewife 